A Reflection of Where I Am by Holly Spence

Reflection of where I am


Son, Bastard or Orphan



In receiving this assignment and reflecting on the teaching I am very excited about the revelation I have received in my studies of being a son and what that means.

I can say without doubt, wavering or hesitation I am a son more specifically a “huois”! This declaration doesn’t come with accolades or extensive list of examples in an attempt to prove my point. But, it comes with a true reflection of my heart. Son-ship is reflective by words and deeds, but is promoted by inward responses to outward circumstance.

As with most processes there are times in the process that are not enjoyable, for as Apostle has taught and the word says, “sons are made”. However, it’s in that making that value is established. Just as in the natural, handmade items can be considerably more expensive then items that are massed produced. There is the time and effort that one puts into the making of the item. Even when it comes to art, a commissioned, hand painted original piece has more value than a digital copy. Further cost and value is increased when a sculpture is commissioned then one that merely commissioned to paint a portrait. The value is greater because the process is longer, it takes more of the sculptor’s time, the materials involved are more and it requires a greater skill set. The sculptor requires time to sculpt and wield the clay to ensure all of the details and facets of one’s face can be identified as the actual person’s likeness.

Being a son is an honor and it says that you have been sculpted and wielded so you can be identified in the likeness of the Father and the father. One of the meanings of Son in the Greek is translated as “Huios” (3)“those whose character God, as a loving father, shapes by chastisements (Hebrews 12:5-8) (3.d) those who revere God as their father, the pious worshipers of God, those who in character and life resemble God, those who are governed by the Spirit of God, repose the same calm and joyful trust in God which children do in their parents (Romans 8:14, Galatians 3:26)

Tecknons are “the votaries, advocate, staunch believer of wisdom, those souls who have, as it were, been nurtured and molded by wisdom”. Then a “Tecknon” can move to a “Huios” behaving himself wisely. (I Samuel 18:5) A Huios has an understanding, (Understanding, is sachal in the Hebrew. To be wise, behave wisely; to understand, be instructed; to wisely consider; to be prudent and intelligent. This word is also occasionally translated “prosper”) Huios are made through “feeding” words, instruction, and chastisement/discipline. Jermiah 3:15 says it this way “And I will give you shepherds according to My heart, who will feed you with knowledge and understanding. A Son’s way is made prosperous under the instruction of his leader/shepherd/father. Proverbs 4:7 Wisdom is a principal thing, but in all your getting get understanding. Proverbs 3:13 Happy is the man who finds wisdom, and the man who gains understanding.



Although I am a son in this house, I still have to do ‘heart checks’ to ensure my status is not jeopardized by the enemy. God is looking for broken and contrite heart. My own inner thoughts or outside influences (internal or external of OMCC). I have to ensure that the spirit of the orphan doesn’t influence my attitude and cause me to try my father. I have to ensure that the spirit of a bastard, the thoughts or influences to do whatever I want to do, or even the temptation to rebel isn’t present, not just outwardly but inwardly “…for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart”. I Samuel 16:7. Thank God for mercy, Old Testament traditions would call for the stoning of a rebellious son. (Deuteronomy 21:18-21). New Testament traditions kill the fatted calf and give rings of honor. (Luke 15:11-32)

There is a war over the mantle and identity; the enemy wants to keep us as bastards/orphans and in a place of disrespect. If that occurs we will disqualify ourselves from wearing the mantle of the father and identity of a son. For with the mantle comes authority, power and a double portion. With this mantle a response is always required. It is seeds sown that will yield a harvest – reproduction – representation of the father.